DEDICATED TO MY SWEETHEART AND SOUL PARTNER   JAYANTHI ON THE OCCASION OF THE FIRST ANNIVERSARY OF HER DEATH

“Cancer was in your body but not in your mind. Pure were your thoughts and actions”

‘Time and tide waits for none’. How fast one tearful year had passed by, while you still live in my heart of hearts, beating with my rhythm, everyday, every minute and every second. You are living with me in every thought and every action .Your positive vibration from Heaven reverberates in every part of my physical, mental and spiritual existence. It is an extraordinary event of two souls merged into one that fused our relation in many births before and so in the coming ones, till we retire together at the Lotus Feet of Lord the Almighty. Many faces I saw and many more came and longed and persisted to associate with me, but vanished as snow that melts under the sun. The very first vision of you, the first eye contact was enough to trigger the memory panel of our previous births. A fraction of a second was enough to fine-print and restart our life together in this birth. From that glorious moment till this day last year, your unconditional love charted a new dimension and chapter in our eternal relation

It matters more how we lived together than how long, as quality and quantity never go hand in hand .Only we know how we valued the treasures of life while we saw and encountered the ill-wills of others. You were always one step ahead of me. You rang alarms when seeing an adversity and were prepared mentally to overcome any crisis. In such an involved life-journey, which brought us more and more together, you abruptly left creating a vacuum that no one else can fill. You ended the role of your life story you enacted so well, to adorn your new costume. You are an elevated soul as your values and actions were unconditional, with the fragrance of love and care. Physically you are not with me today but your affection is living with me, mentally and spiritually. Days are not far away to complete my part of the drama. Sure I will catch you, wherever you are in your next birth. We are made for each other -not only in past but in all future reincarnations and for ever.

The vacuum that came with your exit opened my third eye. Many prophecies that you used to narrate kept ringing in my ears unanswered. Great lives glitter when alive, but shine more like twinkling stars when they are in heaven .You are such a star, as you started sending me your positive vibrations and showing me the tracks to get answers. To quench my thirst, your signals guided me to the wells of spirituality. More I drank, more the thirst to make myself and the “ME ’inside better. I started valuing the super power inside which drives me. I wanted to clean all the accumulated dirt and filth that I encased and fill with heavenly values of love, affection, peace and purity and remold my soul. This may help to enact the remainder of my role in this life-drama better and faster, so that I, the soul, reach you to play our roles together in the ensuing plays of our next reincarnation.

Doors of information opened where I started journeying inside, only to see and marvel the real treasures of life. Different rivers commence the journey from different locations and run through various plains and terrains but ultimately meet at one Sea. Different spiritual masters at various places take us through the routes they have learnt and followed, but ultimately all of them come together at on meeting point -ONE GOD. Call Him by any sweet name you like, see Him through any pleasing figure or feel Him through any touch or smell Him through any pleasant fragrance. Ultimately HE is the ONE. Above caste, creed, color, race, nationality, gender or religion.

This is reinforced when we hear from these Prophets that love is one’s religion. When the house of life is built with love as the foundation and virtues like peace, joy, purity and compassion as building bricks, the stay in that home becomes like heaven on earth. Everyone in that earthly paradise will have a meaningful life. For this every individual has to reform, and only then the collective effect can be achieved. All one needs is the desire and will-power for this transformation.

‘One who lives a life on Earth with all values and virtues, will have his heavenly life among the enlightened divine souls’ -says the famous Tirukural in Tamil. While one knows the values, many a times he has to swim across. If determination is there, he reaches the shore. A shaky mind pulls towards the unrealities of the world and instant worldly pleasures. Hence one searches constantly for peace and happiness. He forgets the fact that what he wants is within him and all he needs is to take the first step of sparing a few seconds with oneself, in silence.

We give so much time in our daily life for others. We give time for our daily activities and we even manage to find time to find fault with others and hurt in all possible manners. We can speak hours about unwanted, waste things and activities which neither benefit us nor others. Still we cannot find a few seconds for our self to introspect in silence. We have butter in our hand and keep running for ghee. We hardly spare a few seconds to think of the Almighty, and then we expect God, who has the whole existence to look after and is ever so busy, to spare time for us?  Awaken at least now, before time is out.

‘Try as everything depends upon you and then pray as everything depends upon God.’ Good seeds will yield good fruits, but we need to protect and nourish the plant. In the same way we need to feed the mind with good thoughts and save it from external attractions. When we have God with us as our Friend and Guide, our thoughts and actions will be on the right track. If God can be with us who can be against us?

‘Four persons make history and four thousand read it’. All four thousand persons can make their own and cross-fertilize life. Individual contributions when accumulated turn into a treasure. Unity thus leads to strength and happiness. “For many a flower is born to blush unseen and waste its fragrance in the air”- Every person in the creation of God is unique and gifted with an excellence. He should not allow this specialty to be lost in the air like an unnoticed flower .Every flower is different in size, shape, color, seasonality, aroma, and so many other attributes. This is true for human beings also.

My tributes to you, Sweetheart, for all the meaning you made when you were alive, now guiding me with your positive vibrations. You have helped me explore and add more value to life. You are not only refining me, but also those with whom I interact with my changed outlook. The new third dimension of life opens new vistas to make the remaining part of my life-journey easier and enjoyable. I am not alone. You are with me!

Yes, I am not alone, as you are with me every second, every hour and everyday.

“May God save us from all illness, lead us to light from darkness and to immortality” Gita

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