I was raised in the Christian religion since I was born (I’m 54), I saw all the hypocrisy, piety, intolerance that goes on in the Christian faith. I left there 20 years ago, and unfortunately, became interested in Satanism. This attracted a lot of negative influences, and a lot of hate built up in me. A good friend introduced me to the wonderful music of Lucinda Drayton about six months ago, I read that her music was influenced by Raj Yoga Meditation - I found it to be powerful and very moving. Since then I have realised the way forward isn’t hate and violence, but Love, compassion and forgiveness. Although I still cannot forgive myself for the hurt I caused to those I loved and have died, I can forgive those who have caused me a lot of hurt and anguish. Most of the negative influences I have had over the last few years have gone, but I know I have to learn to accept and love myself. This I am finding hard to do. But I hope that in time that will happen. I thirst for knowledge, and help from those experienced in Meditation. I have destroyed everything relating to Satanism, and collecting as much information on this Meditation as I can. About four weeks ago, I had to go into hospital to have an operation to repair damage I had done to myself. While I was there I had to have a Community Psychiatric Nurse in the room with me, the nurse who was with me on the day I was discharged, was very much into Meditation. He owned a place in India, and spends six months a year out there. He was a lovely loving man, and gave me so much support and encouragement,and came home with me in the taxi - we keep in touch. I’m now convinced God has been looking over me, and sent that man to show the love and compassion God gives to all of us. I have a lot to learn, and need to spend time on a Retreat, for deep Meditation and reflection. Anonymous

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