A life changing moment I believe everybody has come across highs and lows in their lives and that the way they are handled show the quality of the soul. People usually like to have good things in life, luxury things, and follow the trends. My life was also the same. I had a good education and had been working in Oil Company. I designed seven refineries in my life time, petro-chemicals and port projects and I also had my own refineries, all in almost 35 years. When I was around 34 years old I had to give up my professional life because of a conflict between the people working with me and the spiritual dimension that I had developed in parallel with my social life and technological skills. I tried to get another job but couldn’t, because I was over-qualified. In the interviews people would say: “You have to be my boss, you have to be the CEO”. I went into unemployment for three years, with a family to take care of. I was trying to make ends meet by investing in different things, not always successfully. I was frustrated, with a lot of stress, I nearly became irrational. I believed in God all through my life. Still, at that point, I felt I was left alone. Where had God gone? God, whom I knew as the One who filled my heart since I was 14 year old, seemed to have vanished. That evening I sat down, challenging God and said “OK. I will not give up God, until I get this answer, how to get my life back. I’ve been a good person, performing well in religion, performing well in school, performing well in all the jobs. I fulfilled all my responsibilities being a manager, being a good friend for everyone. For all these good things that I’ve done, why am I in this situation? Where have I gone wrong?” I forcefully tried to meditate and get the answer from God. I said “Without the answer I will not give up.” I was trying to force an answer from God. After four hours of stress, all I got was to get tired. I was very determined but at one point I surrendered to my inability to understand and said “Well if it’s not going to be today, let’s do it tomorrow”. I was giving up, and wasn’t expecting any answer. At that moment, as I succumbed to the stillness and quiet, the answer came! It was a soft whisper, like a breeze softly blowing in my face. I heard, not through my ears but with my heart, that “Of all the things you’ve done, nothing was wrong. The only thing wrong was that you thought you did it all yourself.” . This answer made me realize my problem. I had a big idea about myself. I thought I had been successful; everything was always centered on me and how good I was. I never had been humble. This was the weakness that had to be removed. Suddenly I realized that there were a lot of people, a lot of things involved with my success and that there was a lot more purpose in life than to be successful in a worldly way. My spiritual eye opened up, I saw the world anew and suddenly everything became very still. I got up, put on my good clothes and faced the world with different feelings. Normally, when I looked at the road I would only see the fancy cars and whatever people call the good things. But at this time I looked in a different way. I saw the poor old Chinese guy pushing a bicycle and the kid on his bicycle. I noticed the worry on the face of the old man and the interest in the world of the kid; such a big contrast on the same bicycle. I think I saw the true world at that time. My spiritual eye opened and I felt connected to the Source, the One that people call God, Amba, Jehovah or Shiva. Each time I have this connection, I see the truth around me and understand what I have to do at that moment. I calmly accept and face whatever comes. People worry about the future. As long as you consistently stay in silence, calm, stillness and connect with God, you see the truth and perform your duty, according to your purpose in life in that moment, and live in that moment, without worrying about the future or regretting the past. This is the peace and happiness that everyone should experience. Once you arrive at a critical moment in your life as I did, go into silence, calmness and connect to this powerful Source. Then you too, will know why you are here and what you should do in every moment in your life.

Mr. Supapong Krishnakan, Bangkok, Thailand, Chairman of The Executive Board, Rayong Purifier Public Company Limited.


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